31 août 2018
This morning I saw the doctor cos' last night, I woke up with a huge earache. I have an earinfection, no wonder I had put a stick in my ears to clean them, but instead I damaged them. So I've got some medicine to heal the infection for a week, and I'll return to see the doctor for a checkup. I also phoned for an appointment with a psychiatrist. A long procedure, well, I sent an email to a doctor at Cochin's hospital after a recommendation by the caretaker from the hospital who couldn't give me an appointment with a... [Lire la suite]
30 août 2018
This morning I saw a shrink at the MGEN who listened to some part of my life, namely the rape, I told it and I cried, I'm happy to have got it out of my chest, it was difficult but necessary then I told her about my relations with men and the different sexual agressions I had had. It helped by the way. She told me I needed to be helped by a shrink, a psychiatrist I needed to see regularly. She also told me about the different activities at the MGEN, namely the day hospital. I'll see her again next week, after... [Lire la suite]
27 août 2018
Serenity, all that is left is just to be and to live with what I want to do, and what I need. No avoiding, respecting but also doing what I want and what I've dreamt of doing for such a long time. Trust in myself, self-esteem and la confiance en soi ne vient pas des autres mais de soi. Benevolence and trust.
03 août 2018
2 months since I last wrote. Inner peace and sometimes identification with my thoughts or guilt. Bullying in the family, strange behaviour and a lot of suffering, what for well, never mind, for nothing, nothing to understand, that's just the fact that some people suffer a lot, have a lot of resentment, anger and have to express it and spit it out for it's too much to bear. Ignorance, unconsciousness and self-identification with ways of functioning, forgetting to be, forgetting to forgive and let go. Grudge,... [Lire la suite]