29 décembre 2018
Back from Brittany, I've been feeling for a few days now that I'm ready to write. I want to write about people, about life, about humans. Geneviève Brisac whom I'm listening to on France Culture says: "Le Boulot de l'écrivain, c'est de comprendre ce qu'est un humain."
22 décembre 2018
Tout passe, I've been experiencing this sentence for the last few days, especially experiencing it with the pain and negative emotions. It's like learning a lesson or rather practising what I've learnt theoretically, testing it in real and it helps me move on, continue, live, face my disturbing thoughts and their ensuing negative emotions, and let them pass. I've been avoiding some situations, especially going out to a party for there would have been too many people and the anticipation of it caused me a lot of anxiety... [Lire la suite]
18 décembre 2018
Today, I sat the internal examination for chancellery coworker, category C. I really had a nice, I went there with no pressure, the pressure was yesterday evening when I felt the pressure rising, thinking about the exam and all the day, the interactions I'd had and so on. I met 2 nice girls today, first Paule-Elise and then Hammel. Paule-Elise came to talk to me just at the end of the examination this morning and I asked her if I could lunch with her, she joined a friend of hers that she'd met last year for the same... [Lire la suite]
07 décembre 2018
All is quiet on the western front, or inside. A feeling of inner peace regained, never lost but darkened by clouds that I had not let go, it feels so good to let things and thoughts go, to look at them and let them go, let them be and go as a cloud. Things come and go as the saying goes. Today, I felt good, in the morning I had a session with Mrs Palti, the psychotherapist, and I told her about the disturbing thoughts I've had for 2 days regarding the headmistress of the school where I work, and the need for recognition from... [Lire la suite]