29 mai 2018

Compassion and empathy - self-parenting

I was raped and sexually assaulted several times. Verbally and physically bullied.   I've said it. And I spoke, I talked about it, the power of the words and of love.  I was heard, I love myself, I am loved as I am. So beautiful to be able to live and feel that. I forgive myself and the people who did that, the trauma is still there, I learn to live again, to go forward and be stronger and stronger because this definitely made me stronger and more willing to go forward, I trust myself and I trust people again and I... [Lire la suite]
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25 mai 2018


Today was a very rewarding and knowledgeable day. About the job search and above all about myself or the way I have false beliefs and sometimes prejudices. The job search: I went to get my ID back at the Rectorat.  I decided not to touch anything about my asking for a dispo and not to press it either.  Too many red tape to do, it's unbelievable, always papers, forms and letters or references to support one's demands. Then I went to Cité des Métiers at Porte de La Villette and there I was advised by a very kind employee... [Lire la suite]
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24 mai 2018


Très bonne séance de sophro ce soir où va Florence, qui m'avait donné l'adresse et demandé à la prof si je pouvais me joindre au groupe.  Groupe très sympa également. Did many things today, felt a bit depressed at the end of the day because on Tuesday went to the Cnam for a training and felt discouraged by the two teachers who presented the training. Yesterday I saw the councillor at the Rectorat who advised me to go on long sick leave, that is difficult to admit that I might need to go on sick leave and stop working.  I... [Lire la suite]
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23 mai 2018

All is well that ends well

I've never seen this Shakespeare's play.  Many things happen everyday.  I enjoy life and I finally let go of things, of thoughts.  All my worries are gone, I live by the day, it feels good and I don't plan too much.  I just do what I want to do and I follow my intuitions, I hesitate much less than before, what's the point anyway, things are what they are and there's no need brooding over what might have been cos' that won't change anything and what things are. This morning went to see the councillor at the... [Lire la suite]
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14 mai 2018

The gift of love

Today, did many things and proud of it. Went to see the doctor with the IRM of my foot, she gave me the address of a foot doctor to see, to have some shoe soles made.  Then she asked me how I was doing and how things were progressing as far as the mise en dispo is concerned, I thanked her for her concern, told her and added how lucky I was that she was caring and concerned, I cried when I said that for I felt very moved.  She's helped me a lot since I've known her, the hypnosis sessions and her professionalism and care as a... [Lire la suite]
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12 mai 2018


Long time not written so to say, I wrote in my paper diary but not online which I am doing now. Strange I feel like everything is new, starting again, my main pillar Long gone and with it some sadness or a lot of tiredness, as if I was feeling emptied of my other half, my soul mate as we say who used to bring me so much love I was clinging on to. I went to see L's facebook profile this morning, just to check if he still existed, yes he does, it kind of reassured me that he was still alive as if his departure had been like a death. ... [Lire la suite]
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